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Name: jane-e
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 5/16/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: <3 photography <3 hxc <3 smoking <3 hang-ups <3 i don't cares <3 A STATIC LULLABY <3 writing <3 fuck you's <3 telephones <3 exhaling <3 SCREAMING <3 bliss <3 being alone <3 modest effing mouse <3 bloodbrothers <3 mychemicalromance <3 tightpants <3 hips <3 i'm.so.core.it.hurts. <3
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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

So, I’ve gone through these past few months half dead.

 

              Random make outs.

 

     Drunken nights.

 

                             Losing weight.

 

          Skin and bones.

 

                                  Nervous.

 

              Alone.

 

                             Barely breathing.

 

                        Non-believing.

 

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….I’m a wreck….

 

 

     Best friend moved away, got dumped, because there was a more amazing girl in the picture…  I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me.  Someone save me… please…


Saturday, August 21, 2004

And I’ve heard in time it gets better, and I’ve been waiting for ever… I’ll say goodbye for the last time, only this time I’ll mean it.  My fingers ache from clenching this fist and my eyes still burn…

 

 

You’re running free at record speed, my legs are crushed and my arms, they bleed.  Inside of me turns like a washing machine, while outside I form a smoke screen… What happened to that girl I knew? You look like her but this can’t be [me]…

 

Rain comes down and hits my window, proves to be… the rain is knocking at my window, source of company…

 

What if I died?  Would it make any difference now? 

 

 

AND I KNOW I’LL FEEL

 

 

BETTER IN THE

 

 

MORNING, BUT THIS

 

 

IS HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW

 

 

 

“If you need anything just call,” the understatement of the year…                           

 

You disappeared before my eyes, before my eyes had time to cry…

Currently Playing
No Signal
By Park
Untitled
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Thursday, August 12, 2004

You’re the words that come out easy, and I’m speechless at best… Your star it seems to shine above the rest… You’re the face before the cameras, the smile I’d like to earn.  The closest thing to perfect in a Hollywood to burn.  You’re the beauty that is deeper than eyes can mearly see.  You’re the closest thing to perfect, but the farthest thing from me.  I’d love to be the shoulder that cry on, and I’d the love to be the friend you call when things are great. 

 

You’re the dream that hasn’t ended, and I’m still anxious for rest.  You’re words they seem to hang above me head…. You’re the song that writes a story that leaves a lot to read… The closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me…

 

Like I really deserve a chance to sit across the table and tell you that I think you’re wonderful, and I think you’re something special.  I guess this is my only chance to say I wish I knew you, because I’m sure you’re wonderful, if I get to know you…

 

This is by far the best Juliana Theory song, ever.  It so emotional, without being “emo”.  Fuck emo.   The Juliana Theory has been in my stereo for the past 6 hours, and I’ve been listening to every song, over and over.   I don’t know why, I’ve been in such a bad mood.

I just can’t seem to pull out of it… 

 

Last night, I went to seventeenth street and sat on lifeguard tower number 14 for an hour… I just talked… to the lights in the middle of the Pacific.  I don’t know what else to do anymore.   I really wish I could just walk away from this hell… This hell I call life.  I’ve tried, so many times… I just need, a sign.

 

In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you, and in your head where it dwells.  I’d give you my hand if you reach out and grab it… Let’s walk away from this hell.

 

 

Currently Playing
Love
By The Juliana Theory
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

I die, every day, just so I remember, how it feels to feel something.

 

new pictures of my new piercings... leave comments or die.  k thanks.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Currently Playing
Casually Dressed & Deep in Conversation
By Funeral for a Friend
RED IS THE NEW BLACK
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Monday, August 09, 2004

same old fucking songs on a brand new stereo.
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Seven Ways to Scream Your Name
By Funeral for a Friend
The Year's Most Open Heartbreak
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